"The Freedom Thief"

I used to live in a place where almost everyone at that point of time lived and are still living and i must say that nothing much has changed in the world from the 'that point of time' to the present when i am standing in the shade of this tree.I dont kno whether its the cool shade of the tree spread over a large diameter or the fuits on it that is making me reflect on my life.Everything was quite normal. Happy people were happy and sad people were sad.All of them drank,ate,did some jobs,slept and so did I,and I belonged to the 'supposedly' happy league. I had and still have a job,an apartment,friends,the same newspapers thet everyone used to read,the 76 soporific channels and everything that'd make a banal and innocuous life perfect.I was connected..but quite unfortunately,only with the world and not with the people around.

I dont kno about the catlyst that triggered this eerie feeling inside me. Some vast emptiness;a deep melancholy;though everything appeared to be in order something was missing..Perhaps an idea,a notion..I lacked a purpose,a reason.There was effect but i never could understand why the same cause always; and as a loyal fan of the 'matrix' i thot whether it ws the white rabbit..I knew It wasn't but it was gud to imagine myself as Neo trapped in an imaginary world of illusions..!!
Jokes apart this was getting serious. There was something sulky about the whole system. I ws tied down with my job,social setup,religion,parties,ideology and vrythng. I believed and still believe in God and I was unable to find a reason for all this.There was a routine i was supposed to stick to and if i violated it I'd become an outsider.There were dogmas all around prescribed by the society,the religion,the system and if i negated them i'd be isolated and stoned with moral actions and rebuked as an outsider.And strangely i realized;i dint kno what freedom was............

Today when i am standing in the shade of this tree,i really dont remember whether It ws somebody whol told me about this tree or if i had a dream about it.I came to know about this tree in the outskirts of the deceptive city where i was living.I heard that this is a very strange tree and only one of its kind existed in the whole world.I also heard that this tree'd bear a fruit called the "freedom fruit" and no one was supposed to pluck it or eat it and whoever did so would be banished from the city..I heard this and there was this image of a story i learned in my catechism class that came to my mind;of Adam and Eve getting banished from Eden for eating the forbidden fruit of wisdom bcoz of which they lost eternal happiness and immortality and had to come down to earth and had to suffer and die..

This time i dint thik;I knew and I was pretty sure..How'd they kno what happiness is if they dint xperience suffering, how'd they kno how it feels to laugh if they haven't cried,how'd the kno wut forgiveness is,wut hope is,wut belief is if they were to be in an eternal state of static equlibrium inside Eden.How'd they kno wut life is if they dint see death;how'd they kno what peace is, tranquility is,belief is,victory is,joy is and how'd they kno what love is.Life at Eden cannot be happy coz noone'd ever find out what happiness is.!! I knew God did a wise thing by sending them to earth.It was their greatest gift, the biggest blessing...Life..,to live and die,to hope and pray,to believe and love,to understand the meaning of life through everything...There was no looking back..I had decided..

... And thus i started my joureny towards the Freedom Tree..

to be continued
eric